And he was withdrawn from them about a stone’s cast, and kneeled down, and prayed, Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done. Luke 22:41-42
Many people that believe in the death and resurrection of Christ know that it was on the cross at Calvary that he gave his life for mankind. But reading the above scripture lends me to think, his life was given when he decided to do the will of his father rather than what he may have wanted to do. Any time I think about the above scripture or think about doing something contrary to the will of the Lord, I remember my pastor’s words, “this isn’t the Burger King church; you can’t have it your way”.
The will, by definition, is the mental faculty by which one deliberately chooses or decides upon a course of action. All of us in our lives want things to be or go our way. The stronger the will, the stronger the passion. Many athletic events have been decided by strong wills. We have heard my times about players “willing” their teams to victory and yet that same strong will has torn relationships apart because with some there is no compromising.
But what about when a will is damaged or broken? What do you do when you don’t really care whose will is being served, including yours? It’s like a ship without sail, driven by an angry sea, tossed to-and-fro with no sense direction. At times that is exactly how I feel.
I will admit it is difficult to rebound from life situations that give you that feeling of a broken will, even with knowing the word of the Lord. And I can honestly say I’m at that place right now. But even in this place I find that I’m “willing” to be here. So I return to my own Garden of Gethsemane praying more earnestly until I let my will go.
It’s a slow process, but a process nevertheless.