I was watching TV yesterday and something caught my attention and reminded me of someone in my past. Keeping this blog short…we had a very good relationship, but with stepping over boundaries and being young and stupid…we no longer have that relationship. I can’t even count the years since we have spoken.
As I get older I realize more and more the mistakes made in life. Some you live, learn and move on. But some stay with you and give you that empty feeling when you think about them. Things that should have been…aren’t. Relationships that would have been beneficial today…no longer exist. And, people that have been hurt or altered due to our interactions…live in the void of the heart where their place should be.
As a born again believer I do believe in God’s forgiveness and His grace and mercy. I believe there is a Heaven to gain and a Hell to shun. My dad told me when I was very little, (in one of his talks with the leather belt) “son, there is a consequence for all you do good or bad”, “it may not show up right away, but it will come”. Thus my personal hells…my consequences…living with the voids in my heart.