The journey from Heavens care to my fathers seed which my mother natured and protected for nine months finally bore fruit on this day 42 years ago at 3:37 am. Much has happened since my birth and through it all I love the life I’ve been given and I’m ever grateful to be alive another year.
The past year hasn’t been without its challenges. Actually its been my worst in remembrance. I have been eagerly anticipating this birthday more so than my 18th or 21st birthdays. Not so much as getting older and legal like the other two, but to put to rest the last 365 days. I needed a new canvas to paint on.
My diagnosis of Adult ADHD has been a double-edged sword. I’m definitely improving in what I do and how I function. Yet in that realization, picking up the pieces has been challenging, but it does cause me to focus on who I really am. The interesting aspect of my process is that some people aren’t accepting the change very well. Even though they were frustrated with my prior actions (or lack thereof), my new way of approach or attitude has taken them out of their comfort zone in dealing with me. It was expected, but difficult to deal with nonetheless.
For the first time in my life I’ve even entertained the thought of leaving Cleveland. Yes me, “Mr. Cleveland”. With all that has transpired and the job market like it is, I thought maybe it’s time for a new start…a reboot of sorts. New career, new location and a new me. This chapter has yet to be written, so time will tell.
Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore. – Andre Gide
Today has presented me with a blank canvas. There is still residue I’m going to have to work out, but for the first time in my life I’ve gotten in the boat ready to sail on the ocean of my dreams without keeping my eyes on the shore.
Even with the hell I experienced this past year, there were definitely good times. My father celebrated his 70th birthday, I danced with my daughter for the first time, Baby J and I brushed our teeth together for the first time, I love creative writing and out of that a collaboration with Memories Arranged formed and we have a new greeting card line called Him to Her, I’ve began to pen a few books that should be completed next year, and a new business venture that given the founding partners’ passion, it’s sure to be a success.
Today is a new day, a new beginning…a reboot.
Happy Birthday To Me.